To my darling boy, the one who stole my heart,
And boy have you stolen my heart. I loved you as a baby, you were so tiny and fragile, but now I fall in love with you a little bit more every day for the little boy that you are, for the person you are becoming. It has been a magical year.
Happy 3rd Birthday!!! I don’t even know where to begin this year because so much has happened in your little world and you have changed and grown so much. You are still so little, but then some days you seem so grown.
So much has changed this year but some things remain the same, you still love swimming, we have changed swimming lessons and all it has done is allowed you to flourish, your love of the water is a delight to see, it remains one of my favourite things to do with you. As we approached your birthday you are ready to move up a class, I was bursting with pride but sad it also means I won’t be in the water with you. I have loved every second of our lessons together and I cannot wait to see how you thrive without me. You still love animals, enjoying trips to farms and zoos, seeing animals in the street and mostly time with our Pup. You have the sweetest bond, and on other days you tourment the life out of him! Yet you remain his favourite human.
Then there are the things we have discovered this year as you are able to show us your preferences, you love being outside so much, Daddy and I joke you are like a labrador, you need space and freedom every day to be allowed to run, and thankfully we are able to give you that. You love reading, more than any other book you love The Gruffalo, the three of us can now all recite it from memory but oh how I love reading with you, seeing your face light up as you hear stories you love, the new stories you read at pre school and come home talking about.
You started pre-school and you have thrived, you love the ladies who look after you and you enjoy being there - it is lovely seeing you develop, you sing all the time now and it makes me grin. I love hearing from the ladies what you get up to and who you are away from me. It was heart wrenching for me to put you into pre school, but I don't regret the decision for one second, and seeing how amazing the women are with you was the deal breaker for leaving you there next year.
You are so polite, it is the thing I get told time and time again. It makes me beam that even when I am away from you these things are instilled in you. Mummy will only ever ask three things of you, to be polite, to be kind and to listen. You nail two of the three every day :)
You are always so excited by everything, it makes every day a total delight.
Your little face lights up when you smile and we aren't the only ones to notice, I am forever being told how your smile will brighten a room. Your delight in everything makes me excited for the day to day stuff. I think I am teaching you but Mr Noah you teach me something new every single day. You also have the ability to charm everyone we meet and I burst with pride as I watch you. Just last week you picked a flower and took it to Pre-school for your key worker, it makes me so proud that you are so thoughtful and loving. It also reinforces that Daddy nails it as both a husband and Dad, you seeing him buy me flowers and do nice things is reflecting in the way you treat others.
You are still so so stubborn and strong willed, and trying to allow you to grow and keep that strong willed streak has been challenging at times. However I will never try to tame that spirit, it's what makes you you, even on the days you argue with me about what you want to wear, or ask me why or how when asked to do something. This year we have started potty training, I spent ages thinking you would never get it, you refused to show any interest at all so I just left it, but one afternoon you decided you were ready. There was that stubborn streak again, it wasn't happening a single second before you were ready and once you decided you were you cracked it within a week! The same for the dummy, I lost sleep thinking you’d be 25 and attached to that thing, then one night, no more.
You grow more independant every passing day, and it's the little things that make me ache, you want to walk the stairs rather than me carry you to bed. You frequently say to me when we are out “ Mum dont hold my hand now!” and whilst I respect it (as long as you are safe) I can't believe you are already so independent. You are moving into your ‘Arlo bedroom’ or your big boy room as me and Daddy call it, and again I am so excited, but my heart aches a little that you aren’t that small anymore. Then come the days when you need me, Im still the person you want to do everything for you and everything with you and whilst I know that wont always be the chase I cherish every second.
You are my motivation, this year has seen Mummy run two marathons and trek over 100 KM and at ever point I thought of stopping I thought of you my darling boy. That I wanted you to be proud of me, that I wanted to set the example that anything is possible if you just put your mind to it and believe in yourself. You make me want to be a better person.
I am so so grateful every day for you, I know I must bore people to tears but I don't care, the sun rises and sets with you and always will. Myself and Daddy will always be on your side and always believe in you. The circle around you has gotten tighter in this last year, and your relationship with your cousins, aunts, grandparents,friends and the family we made for ourselves is beautiful to see. I never worry for you because boy do I know how loved you are. Remember these are the people who will be there if you ever feel like you cant talk to us, they are the people who make you richer than any amount of money ever can.
We always planned this year would be the year we gave you a sibling but life doesn't work that way, and whilst it has taken a bit of getting our head around myself and Daddy know that it is for the best for all of us that you remain an only child and we will be fine as our family of three (four if we include the furry one.) It doesn't matter either because you have filled my heart and then some, I always say you arent my only child you are my all :) You will never be alone either, just look to that circle around you. Anyway we have Auntie Lexi to thank for Gru Fish and if you are lucky we may add another furry one to the gang this year…
You're Not the newborn I held anymore, the chubby cheeks of your baby years have gone and in front of me stands a beautiful little boy. You were a stroppy baby but the little boy you have become is so full of mischief, smiles and cheekiness, oh how I love it. The best really is yet to come.
The days are long but the years are short, you don’t stop moving from the second you open your eyes until the moment you go to bed, so them lovely cuddles you give are always such a treat. I really don't know where the last three years have gone. All I hope is that you can see yourself through my eyes every day, and know just how special you are.
Keep smiling, keep laughing, keep being you...perfect
Happy 3rd birthday Mr Noah
Love you no matter what
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My names Faye, mostly known for being a tea addict and keen runner and swimmer. I'm 32, married and I had my 1st child in June 2015, oh and I also happen to have epilepsy. This is my story of Pregnancy, Motherhood & Epilepsy.